SO, UM, I WROTE SOME 2PM CHATS? And they actually look like chats! Gmail chats. I have no idea why it took me so long to figure out how to press that printscreen button, but there you go. IQ of a fucking rock. It's too late for me to go back and edit all the Arashi chats I wrote for Death Ray, but I'm pretty sure I'll still be writing Arashi chats again so they will likely be in this better format too! Unless you guys hate this format, in which case, you have to tell me or I'm just gonna stay on my high horse and giggle to myself because I finally managed to use the computer effectively.

I'm being generous with the word "effectively" here.

Okay some quick things:

1. je_holiday: HOLY SHIT I AM FREAKING OUT BECAUSE I DON'T THINK I WILL BE ABLE TO FINISH IN TIME. AAAAAAAAAH. Okay okay let's calm down. Fic or bust! Give me fic or give me death! Let them eat fic! oh my god what am i even talking about, clearly the pressure is getting to me

2. Arashi: On a more serious note... Guys, I've been lurking around that Johnny's fic anon meme and it seems that there are people who have the impression that I've defected over to Korea, land of K-pop, and will never write Arashi again. This isn't true okay! I love K-pop but I love Arashi too and will continue to write for them! It's just taking me a while. I'm sorry! I was really, really shocked to learn this, but I think I've disappointed a lot of people with my absence from fandom, and for that I will never be able to apologize enough. Thank you everyone who's been patient with me. I'll work harder. ♥

3. School and everything associated with it: Still killing me softly. Let's not talk about it.

Here are the chats! As with most things that come out of my brain, they are not meant to be taken seriously. Arashi friends, if you want to read some Arashi chats that are actually LEGITIMATELY hilarious, I recommend panpipe's here, which will forever define the genre of chat!fic for me, okay. Man, how creepy do I sound right now. I-I have her friended on Dreamwidth okay! Which I never use OTL

ANYWAY ENOUGH DILLY-DALLYING:
( Chats! With extra Taec! )

So I think my one worthy accomplishment in life has been to introduce one of my best friends to the joy that is Arashi. Okay maybe I can't take all the credit, since she was sort of familiar with JE before and was a NEWS fan, but considering how much I went on and on about Arashi this and Arashi that in my emails to her (guys you would NOT believe how annoying I was), I like to think that I had a little to do with with it. /BRAGGING

WAIT ignore that html tag, I'm not actually done bragging yet.

She drew me fanart you guys! For The Magician!! She is an AMAZING artist and I am so lucky to know her and she is so nice to me and omg ;______; <33333

Usually, if I'm upset about something fandom related, I'll write a fic for it, to try to give myself closure. I tried to this time, too, but I couldn't finish the fic, because I don't know how things will turn out for 2PM and I am too scared to make my own guesses.

So for now, I sketched something, just to get some tension off my chest.

I'm not good at art and I have no experience with drawing anatomy, so please excuse my mistakes. I just needed to make something, that's all.

( what time is it now )

I need to get back to writing. I need to, so badly. I really want to. I don't know what's keeping me back. I think it's half laziness and half lack of motivation. I'm out of touch with Arashi; I've really been obsessed with k-pop lately, and I've started writing some fic for that, but even writing that takes a lot of energy.

I went through my writing folder about a week ago, and I ended up getting so pissed at myself because there were so many fics I'd started and just gave up on, and so many good plot lines that I never finished developing, or I had finished developing but just never bothered to put into fic.

This following bit, for example, I thought was going to be my next chapter fic, but I stopped writing it because it involved too much OC backstory and I hate writing OCs. But when I was reading through it, I was disappointed that I would never get to share it. So I'll do it now. I won't put up all of it, because a lot of the parts are complete crap, but I really liked the beginning at least. I felt it had a lot of potential, and was a fun start to what hopefully would be a fun fic.

Some of you may recognize this from that "one-sentence WIP" meme I did eons ago.

( so if you're interested! )


( EDIT: now with more parts! )

To everyone who has a Dreamwidth account and I guess even everyone who doesn't

hmm


TO EVERYONE:

Ch-ch-check out this fab community my homegirl aeslis recently started up: Stormwriters! Basically we talk shop about Arashi and Arashi fic and writing about Arashi and writing about Arashi fic. Meta, yeah. Meaty delicious meta. LJ users can comment with OpenID! JOIN US! I can promise* you that you will become a better writer for it.

*Please keep in mind that my promises are only binding spiritually, not legally.


Now, to everyone who doesn't have a DW account:

If you'd like one, I have four invite codes that I would like to see go to happy homes! Leave me a comment or drop me a PM if you're interested!

Whew, it only cost a hundred million research dollars, but I've managed to compile the data needed to create another ground-breaking graph.


lol

1. With thanks to rhythmia for the idea.
2. First graph.
3. purexoxo said that there could be a thesis written about that first graph, and I said the appendices would be filled with nothing but half-naked photoshoots, and somewhere, somehow, the wonderful toinkydoink decided to make both our dreams come true. Guys you can be educated while looking at half-naked Arashi. I can think of no better deal in life.

I've never heard any of the Brown Eyed Girls' songs before this one but if they are all this good then, then!! *___________________*


ETA: I really like the album too!

As in, not.

Questions for everyone, if you guys have the time:

Remember that Hey!Hey!Hey episode where Arashi was talking about getting embarrassing massages in Taipei? (Was it Taipei?) And they made Sho do the pose they had to be in? Right, that one!

1. What exactly was the pose Sho did? Was he on his back? Were his arms stuck out? I can't remember at all! Other than that it was embarrassing and hilarious.
2. What date was this episode aired? Thanks to nicefinalbeam ♥
3. What other hilariously embarrassing things has Sho been doing lately (ie. since the date of the episode above)? Please cite these with dates. (Or general approximations of dates, at least.)


THIS IS RESEARCH, GUYS. I SWEAR I NEED IT FOR SOMETHING THAT MAY OR MAY NOT BE IMPORTANT.


Thank you to anyone who can help!

Well, I debated for a while where to post this thing, here or at my fic community, but I opted for here since it's technically not a fic. I know, I know, "who the hell cares?" Yes yes, I hear you.

My entry for the June contest at shoneenclub! I got 2nd place, which I was mighty pleased with. :9 Also, the contest? AWESOME. Go forth! If ye has not yet tasted yonder succulent fruit. Er.

Rating: G
Description: [AU] Sho is attending a friend's wedding. He meets this one guy - he's kind of a jerk.
Note: Please read left to right, top to bottom!
For: katmillia. Congrats on doing great on your GREs!! ♥

( black and white and read all over )

So I decided to be "modern" and join the rest of the world on "the internet," so I went and installed AIM at omnipresentdmat's encouragement!

primroseshows (obvious name is obvious)

Now you can talk to me when you might not want to talk to me! Wait

After years of exhausting research, I've come to the following conclusion:


version 2.0


DISCUSS?

yay_box, you are amazing for showing this to me, I can never thank you enough.

( BUT OMFGGGG YOU GUYS LMAO )

HEY! Time for some Truth or Dare!

TRUTH, you say? HMMMM.

Truth: I am half asleep as I type this and I do not not not want to go to work tomorrow.

Truth: I haven't written anything in a while, perhaps many of you have noticed this. I have a few things I'm working on, but none of them are even halfway done. I am kind of in a rut in that I will write a few paragraphs I think are okay, and then everything just deteriorates from there and then I get too angry to try to fix things and then I just sit at my desk and hate myself and think I deserve to be beaten with a sense stick. I KNOW. It is very emo and I am ashamed of myself too. I'm trying to get something out soon, but it's a battle between me and it and I am not winning.

Truth: I did participate in the Anon Meme but what I was actually hoping for was good, honest feedback about my writing because I want to improve and write as well as some of the other authors I know. Thank you to everyone who did comment for me, you guys really helped me a lot. But I was not aware that things like THIS FOLLOWING MEME existed.

THE ANONYMOUS WRITING FEEDBACK MEME

To those who've already commented on that other meme, thank you so much, you don't have to comment again, I already love you. But if anyone else is willing to throw me a bone, CONCRIT ME UNTIL I BLEED PLEASE. I NEED A MAJOR KICK IN THE ASS.

In fact! That is your dare!


ETA:
Thank you very much to those who commented!! You guys are incredible! You really know how to make a girl feel special and whenever I hit a writer's block, I know I'll come back to these comments for inspiration and encouragement. Also thank you so much to those who gave concrit! I will work harder on everything you guys mentioned, but especially my characterization because lots of people brought this up. While I know it is inevitable that some people will disagree on an author's characterization in fanfiction, there is always room for improvement!

Also someone mentioned that maybe serious fics weren't the best choice for me. To this person: thanks but I'm going to keep writing them! I'm now kind of determined to keep on writing them until I make one that you'll enjoy, even though I have no idea who you are, l-lol. I will try to do some more research though, as you suggested! :)

Clearly I should be doing other things with my time.

( But you shouldn't! )

Well! It took me three got-dang tries to make the index, but eventually I did it! DW. You have met your match. Your very incompetent match.


Whoo! Fic community! This is like my first big step into become an adult in fandom. S-shut up! Let me bask in the moment.

Everything links back to LJ right now, but I'll be posting new fics there too! (And at livejournal, of course.) Please feel free to join!! :D

ETA: Hey, gorgeous people at LJ, would you like me to make a fic community here too? Or are you okay with me just posting in my journal like I usually do? I don't really mind either way and I am all for making it easier for other people to handle my crap. Please share with me your opinions!

ETA2: I mean, I might as well, right?